For many years I heard people talk about going "within" to find happiness and fulfillment. Various helping professionals had similar guidance - "have your own back and watch your dreams come true" or "meeting your own needs is your biggest shot at true happiness" etc. I don't mind saying, I didn't get it. I didn't understand what that meant or how to do it. These words seemed like empty spiritual or self-help speak and I found it all kind of condescending frankly. Amazingly enough, I somehow landed on such a path. This did not come quick or easy. I found my "Self" and began owning my deepest needs and wants, while picking up the pieces of my career, finances and so-called love relationship. From the floor, I started over, one scrap of emotion at at time. By taking stock of my cobbled past, I have learned to understand myself and my choices. I now make decisions that support me in all of the important ways. I never imagined this would be the biggest accomplishment of my life. Of course, I will always place huge importance on my friends and family and I will always have a deep seated need to accomplish something meaningful. There are things I seem to need/want to accomplish. But I now put my own health, happiness and well-being first. I suppose I was looking to someone/something else to give me that level of love and security. It's an amazing feeling to enjoy meeting those needs for myself. Somehow this frees up a HUGE amount of emotion and energy for my personal pursuits and for the people I care about. I realize that enjoying people, rather than needing them to fulfill something in your life, is immensely empowering. Somehow there's more love to go around and more to give.
Blessings,
Chatgirl
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