Shadow Work: journal prompts
- What’s the biggest lie I tell myself consistently?
- When am I the hardest on myself and why? Where does it stem from?
- When have I felt betrayed? What would I say to that person who broke my trust?
- What makes me feel the most jealous?
- What’s one trait I see in other people I wish I had?
- What traits do my parents have that I hope I don’t?
- What are my most toxic traits and how do I project them onto others?
- When I think about the future, what am I most afraid of?
- When was the last time I forgave myself?
- What does happiness mean to me?
— Unknown
Hmm, these are very revealing questions. I may have to write an entry for each one, Lol. But I’m going to focus on where “it all stems from”. Family of origin. (My favourite therapist says this is the case for most of us). My parents were pretty much at war. Which left my mother depressed and chronically “sick”, and my father angry and frequently volatile and violent. Our family felt blended, even though my father and mother were my actual biological parents. (They’ve both passed on. Mother fairly recently). My mother and brother were very close and she fiercely had his back (not mine or my sisters unfortunately?). My sister and I were inseparable Irish twins, so at least we had each other. My father had an ongoing rage, and the rest of us walked on egg shells. Having said all that, when was the last time I forgave myself? I like this question because it makes me realize I need to be gentler with myself. I survived and thrived, despite growing up behind the eight ball. It was all tough love growing up, which is not a warm and fuzzy situation. And the opposite to who I am and what I need. But I dusted myself off and took full accountability of my life (with the help of my trusted therapist and his brilliant healing work) instead of laying in blame. I realize I’m proud of that. And I forgive myself for anything I feel I haven’t accomplished. Just sayin’ ;) Hugs and good luck. XO
Blessings,
Chatgirl
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